Sunday, December 28, 2008

....it's been a while...

life is funny and it gets in the way of things, or maybe it's the getting-in-the-way-of-things that composes life itself. since the last i looked at this now cob-webby old blog i impulsively created months ago so much has changed. the same soul-searching, God seeking, irresistibly yearning feelings are flitting around from my head to my heels as i try to live and hope and bring joy daily. recent events have brought again how unpredictable things can be and how likely they are to change to my pondering once again...but the conclusion it has brought me to is one that i've always know to be true but that God seems to need to continually remind me of...loving isn't easy, it isn't perfect, it is messy and hard and holding onto hope through all the ups and downs and heartbreaks and having the vulnerability to keep on doing that is hard-it sucks-it can tear you apart-and it hurt so much....but it is what we, I, am called to do-because how could there be another way? what other act or spoken word or emotion could have such an impact? what else do we as human vessels posses, what else have we been given that can be poured out over and over again in such enormous amazing quantities? what else can we do but to love? to love as unconditionally and openly as we possibly can, to keep pouring out knowing that we are going to be filled back up again and again? why wouldn't we? what is stopping us? stopping me? i want to love with a reckless abandon that could have only come from a perfect savior...There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear. 1John4:18a...


"We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home. "

-To Write Love on Her Arms


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